Wednesday, June 19, 2019

Points of View



It’s easy to have passions, thoughts, and feelings
When issues are written seemingly in black and white
The politicians (and media) tell you
It’s this party or that party
Not a whole lot of talk of the in-between

You read a story
Watch a movie
Regardless of the actions
The plot line always thickens
The emotions ride high
To lead you to favor
Any and all characters
Despite their intentions
But when you take a step back
You realize
The same issue you hoped the villain to overcome
Is the same issue you fight against in reality

Then you meet the “issue” in person
 Hear their story, fall in love
“Those people” became your friends
Your neighbors
Your coworkers
Keep it quiet, shhh, even family

All of sudden
That issue that was black and white
Has a name
Has a reason
Has a why
What you thought was straight forward
Was merely a lie
That the media portrayed
To sell more lies
To keep us divided
On two separate sides

Soon you start asking questions
Raising eyes
To decipher the lies
What was once black and white
Became shades of grey
It’s all fun and games
Until they become real people
Lives are at stake
Do we know what we’re missing?

You discovered the ideals and views
You were raised with
Was from an older generation
Of simpler times
Where silence was golden
And noise wasn’t silver

You try to share your new perspective
With family and others
Some are progressive
Others are regressive

You can search all day
For the perfect answers
To clear out the fog
That lies in their minds
But you can’t always undo
Sixty years of lies
Even when they friend
“Those kind of people”
They caveat everything with
“No offense”
Or
“Thank goodness you’re not like them”
When inside “Those people”
They’re really
Cringing
Because “those kind of people”
Are really their own individuals
Not to be confined
Into any single box

So maybe one day
We’ll all wake up
To a world in which
We don’t have to label
Republican Here
Democrat There
Where we all work together
For the good
Of all
Our people

Sunday, April 14, 2019

The Noise of Silence

The Noise of Silence

It was in the moments of silence
I heard you the clearest
In the moments of despair
I dried my own tears 
 My fingers reached for the phone 
But we’re met with a blank screen
It’d been two weeks
Since I heard a peep from you there
Not a text or a call
Or a tag to be found anywhere 

They told me I built
My walls too deep
Too wide
Too high
But it was for moments like these
I thanked the bricks were in place

I was the most vulnerable that night 
Baring my soul
My woes
My cries
It was the first in my life
I got real
I went wide
Sharing it all
The pain wafting from my pores 

You heard it in my voice
You saw it in my face
For the first time in my life
I needed you there
I needed to come first
It was my turn to share first
Your turn to hear
I could sit back 
While you reached out to listen 
But it was evident this time
That now I no longer
Served your purpose

It was In those moments 
Guard let down
I found out in these moments
Who were my friends
Who had my six 

How do I know
The question would go
It was the moments of silence

I heard you the clearest. 

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Joy

This isn't final but I currently don't care. Sometimes I think showing more of the rougher, needs refinement pieces have more meaning than the polished, well articulated outcome we are more prevalent and used to seeing. 

Joy

I started the year 
proclaiming Joy for all to hear 
I guess the devil heard me too
As he stood up and said
Challenge accepted, my dear 

You see, we Christians know better than 
To pray for patience 
As God will surely
Give you opportunities to work on it
And I guess Joy was the same 
Kind of thing

I started the year
With merry and mirth
Friends stood up and took notice
Proclaiming the joy they felt
Somethings new
Somethings different 
They said
Good
Was my one word response 

But the devil had two
Always needing to go one more step to
My one
As he chucking replied
Game on

Two months went by. 
As I found joy in my work
Joy in my friends
Joy once again
In my worship

We can’t have that
This can’t last for long 
Said the devil
He gave me a chance
He gave me the time
To fall off the wagon myself
But when I didn’t
When it sustained
See, I was doing a new thing
And it was lasting

Did you know joy and happiness are two different things?
I found out the hard way
Happiness is found in my circumstances
Joy comes from the Lord
Joy isn’t found in who I am
But in whom I am

He started ripping it all away
Piece by piece
Week by week
How long did my praises last?
Not long he found
I put on a fake smile
Cheerful face
But deep within
The well was dry

I was angry with God
I was angry at my Father
He was supposed to be there to protect me
He was supposed to be there for support
So why then
Did it feel as if the roles were reversed?

Time heals all wounds
I’m not sure if I believe that
But you have to practice
What you preach
So here I am

It wasn’t supposed to be this way
But life often goes
On a different road
Than the one you were on
If you take one wrong turn 
It only takes a minute for you to end up on that long back road
Will I find that hidden gem diner?
Or run out of gas
On the side of the road?