Think Before You Speak

I’ve been told in the past four years I won’t or can’t do a lot of things.

Last night I was sharing about my recent financing with Lowes so I could buy new appliances for my new house in Charlotte. I explained how I opened up a line of credit to finance it, 18 months same as cash. Then this guy commented

 “You won’t pay it off in 18 months.”

I turned to him and said “Yes I will”

“No you won’t”

Now wait a minute. You hardly know me. Yet you are going to sit there and tell me what I will and won’t do?! No sir, I don’t think so.

Shortly after my sophomore year I had to buy a new computer and wanted a Mac but couldn’t afford to just throw down $1,200. So I financed it through Best Buy for 18 months same as cash. I paid it off, every penny by myself, in 14 months.

I guess that’s the same as people telling me I couldn’t graduate high school in three years. I was 17 when I started college.

People told me that I couldn’t double major with a minor and graduate in four years. That I couldn’t handle 19+ credit hours each semester in order to make that timeline. That I couldn’t handle working (some semesters 30-45 hours/week), that heavy course load, and be a collegiate athlete.

I just graduated with latin honors three weeks ago with a degree in Management & Marketing, Psychology Minor and finished up my second year as Captain for the Rifle team.

I guess that person was right, I probably won’t be paying off those appliances in 18 months. 



(I want to note, I have some of the most supportive parents out there who have always encouraged me along with a God  who makes anything possible. So yes, I had some help along the way)

That Special.....

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“You have plenty of time for that.”

“Patience is a virtue, just try to have some.”

“It’s not all it’s cracked up to be. Really, I’d rather have your freedom”

“You’re young, enjoy it while it lasts”

These are all statements I’ve heard numerous times from different people over the course of the past year or two. In fact, it’s a speech I’ve heard so often I could probably repeat verbatim from memory. Much like those lectures I know I’m sure to receive from my parents when I do something stupid happens and I have to call to tell them. (Confession: Sometimes I practice these lectures to my roommate in my Dad’s voice to prepare. As she and I can both tell you, I’m getting pretty good at predicting exactly what will be said. I can even give the lecture to myself and have done so in front of my parents, much to their amusement.)

Despite knowing all these lectures by heart, hearing them hasn’t really gotten through to me. It frustrates me to hear them and instantly, I start blocking out what the individual is saying to me.

Maybe if I had tried listening and not gotten frustrated, I might actually have gotten somewhere.

See, most of you are probably scratching your heads trying to determine what topic I might be talking about.

Keep scratching, it should become obvious as you read further.

See, I’ve been asking God about this for the past year now. Where was I going wrong? How was I different than those around me? Should I compromise? Lower my standards?

No.

That statement has gotten through loud and clear from God. I just wasn’t sure what the explanation was behind it. (Not that God owed me one because he doesn’t, I just wasn’t sure when he was going to reveal his plan to me. Repeat what should be stamped onto my forehead: All in good time, child, all in good time.)

It was about two months ago I started receiving clear messages. Ones that left a little bitter taste in my mouth until I washed it out with some humble pie.

Let me tell a story first. I’ve been listening to Pastor Perry at NewSpring for 4 years now. Even from the beginning of my freshmen year this lesson has been taught and interwoven into more sermons then I can recall or count. “The right Christian significant other for you is one that you have to grow closer to God in order to grow closer to them.”

I’ll be honest, this concept has baffled me for 3.5 years. It might seem simple but I just didn’t get it. How could a guy cause me to want to grow closer to God to get to him?

When you really like a guy who is really interested in say football, don’t you learn everything you can about the sport? (Unless you live in the South where apparently teaching the concepts of this game is as important as teaching the alphabet to your kids).

When a guy is really truly focused on God, don’t you want to have the same values as him? Want to demonstrate you are that focused on God as well? Doesn’t seeing their desire and passion for our Heavenly Father cause you to want to have that same passion?

I “met” a guy that caused this for me. A guy who’s passion and desire to seek the Lord in each situation and proclaim it to the world was more than I thought existed. A guy who was my age, outgoing, hardworking, and similar interests. It really astounded me. I’m sure this particular guy has no idea the effect he has had on me. Then I made the connection between what Perry had been preaching and I smiled. Perry does tend hit the nail on the head even if it takes me some time to understand.

So I’ve tried to start pursuing God with this desire. The desire to grow closer to God and along the way I might have learned a thing or two.

Here’s the thing though.

1 Timothy 2:11 “Let a woman learn quietly with all submissiveness”

Proverbs 31:10 “A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.”

1 Corinthians 7:4 “The wife's body does not belong to her alone but also to her husband. In the same way, the husband's body does not belong to him alone but also to his wife”

Colossians 3:18-19 “Wives, submit to your husbands, as is fitting in the Lord.  Husbands, love your wives and do not be harsh with them.”

Do any of these describe me?

No. Not yet.

My career is really important to me. I worked hard to get where I am and want to continue working hard. Am I willing to consider a man in my life and put his needs first and submit or compromise? Not yet. Am I worth far more than rubies? I have way too much to learn on my own before I bring someone else in the mix so definitely not more than rubies. Am I taking care of myself health wise? I recently started dieting, getting back into running, and getting more sleep and rest because I realized I wasn’t.

I’ve watched friend after friend, get hurt over relationships that haven’t turned out well. If I already know I’m not ready based on the above, why was I getting frustrated? Sometimes it takes time to put it all together. So now, I’m putting it together and thanking God. Thanking him that I’m not getting heartbreak brought into my life. Thankful he has placed a wonderful lady in my life who has taught me what a Christian marriage is supposed to look like and how as a couple and as an individual, you grow closer to God.

I’ve still got a lot to learn but hopefully, I’m saved some trouble and heartbreak along the way. It’s funny, God really does have my best interests at heart but just like with my earthly father, I have to grow more mature to appreciate it. Sometimes, it takes that special...guy....situation...nudge..alignment of the planets. Huh, I guess wisdom does come with age.

The trajectory of our Lives

"I guess I've just never felt the need for God. I've never had someone close to me die or a traumatic experience. Nothing has ever made me feel like I need God." 

A friend of mine a few months back got into a discussion with me about "my" religion. I was really excited because opportunities like that rarely come along without being forced and this one wasn't. As we got into discussion he made the statement above. One that just blew my mind because while I had heard it before, that time it really resonated with me. What do you say to that? What do you say to someone that believes of you that the only reason you worship God is because something traumatic brought you to him and you use him like a crutch to get through life? 

I sat in silence for a couple minutes after he made that statement. I knew this was a precarious moment, one in which I would need to tread lightly and with great care or risk losing any progress made with my friend. Do I wish that something would happen to bring him to his knees and draw him closer to God? No, not for a moment do I wish such an event for him but unfortunately, such an event is typically what brings people to God. They come crying to him, begging for another chance, fists shaking at him for allowing such an event to occur.

I continued to think about it and realized I didn't have "magic words" or the "right picture to paint" to win him over. I simply ended the conversation with expressing my opinion that typically, it does take certain events to occur to bring one home to God. That I hoped that isn't what would happen with him but I would always be there to answer any questions he had and find him the answers if I didn't have them. 

If you were looking for that great story where God gripped the heart and brought another one of his children back to him, this wasn't it. The reason I share it is because I think many of us are still trying to figure out what to say or do in those situations. It made me realize my inadequacy in dealing with those situations and how much I needed the Holy Spirit to speak through me but I just didn't know how. 

It made me realize I needed to "Get Ready"

This Sunday at NewSpring, my church will start a series pinpointed to help followers share their story with others, prepare us to talk to our family, friends, and even strangers about our faith. I know I need it. Easter is coming and what a great service and time to bring others with us. It's a proven researched fact people are more willing to say yes to attending church for Easter and Christmas. One is already past and not for another nine months. Are you willing to wait nine more months to get that very unlikely individual to church with you? I know I'm not. I'm ready to listen, learn, and act to get those I love to a God I know who saves and still performs miracles. 

Don't believe God still performs miracles. Let me share three quick stories just in MY LIFE of how he has proven he is the same miraculous God today that he was 2,000 years ago when Jesus walked the earth:

1. For the first twelve years of my life, I lived in Ohio where black ice meant the roads were extremely icy but it was clear and looked black like the asphalt. My mom hit such a piece of black ice one day driving. She spun off the road and proceeded to flip her SUV not once, not twice, but THREE times into the surrounding field landing roof down on the ground. Windows were blown out, car was completely totaled. Now ask me how much the paramedics did to treat her. NOTHING! Absolutely nothing because my mom walked away WITHOUT A SCRATCH on her. If God wasn't holding her in the palm of his hand performing a miracle, then I don't know what else is.

2. When I was a senior in high school I worked at a bar and restaurant in downtown Columbia. One night after work I was walking to my car and was approached by a guy asking for a cigarette. Before I had completely gotten the words out about not smoking, he had a gun out and at my head. He demanded my money and credit cards. My parents had always preached to me about such a situation so I hadn't taken anything but my keys and license to work. I offered my car keys but that wasn't what he was after. The next approximately five minutes of my life were the scariest I have ever had. He yelled at me and jabbed the gun at me, screaming that I wasn't taking him seriously. It's the one and only time in my life I truly thought I wouldn't be walking away. I won't go in much more detail but the gunman calmed down and walked away. In the space of twenty seconds, he stopped screaming, bid me to have a good night and get out of there before some "bad guy" came along and walked off. If God wasn't involved in that situation, I don't know what was.

3. You would have to know my Dad to appreciate this last one but let's just say my Father was not very nice when I was growing up. He was quick to anger and slow to reason. Completely opposite of what the Bible calls for. He was an alocholic my entire life. I prayed for years something in him would change. In April, I will be celebrating his 4th year of sobriety with him. I couldn't be more proud of him. A man that was too proud to admit his problem, who was unpleasant at best to be around, is now a man I seek for advice and grow excited to go home to spend time with. 

God works in his time. Not yours. On his plan, not ours. Come learn how to be apart of it.

"The trajectory of our lives can change before we even know it’s happening. It doesn’t take much. A phone call. A conversation. Unexpected news. But what if we could have a part to play in the life trajectory of other people? What if someone’s story could be different because of you? Would you play your part? Take a step of faith? Are you ready?"  newspring.cc

My Demands of a God that didn't Exist

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“Never pray for patience. God will surely give you situations in which to teach it to you.”

Kerri, my co-leader for small group told me that a couple weeks ago. My question is, why didn’t someone share that nugget of wisdom with me a year ago?!

A year ago, I was on my search for what I wanted from life. Mainly, what kind of internship I was in search of. Those that know me, know just how much I struggled to be patient with God. Some things however, have to be taught as lessons to you for you to learn them.

“For there is a time and a way for everything, although man's trouble lies heavy on him”

            -Ecclesiastes 8:6

Have you ever seen Bruce Almighty with Jim Carrey? It’s about a guy who gets fed up with how God is handling life and wants his own control. God (Morgan Freeman) scares him and gives him that high and very responsible heavy power. Now for those that have seen it, I want you to picture the scene with Bruce at the computer answering all the prayers by email. He eventually is so overwhelmed he answers “yes” to all of them.

That’s the God I was seeking. The one if I demanded enough times to give me what I wanted it would happen. That God doesn’t exist. If you remember how well it went for those people in the movie, you can appreciate how terrible it would be if God really gave us everything we asked for. God knows so much better than us. Aren’t we glad that God tells us no at times?

I slowly learned over the course of the summer the many reasons why God told me no. The true irony didn’t become a factor until I interviewed with one of my top companies Vanguard. Vanguard is an investment firm with a large office in Charlotte, NC. With having almost zero background in finance (except for that internship over the summer), the firm didn’t really make a fit for me but I was very interested in the company.

I went through three very successful interview rounds. My attitude this time around was very different however. Instead of asking God for this job, I was asking God if this job was for me. I prayed about the new location, the people, the company itself, and my fit. I looked for confirmation factors starting with the fact it was in one my top three cities, Fortune 500 company, ranked on best places to work, company invests heavily into the employees, benefits were great, I could go on. What really got my hopes up was that I knew many people in Charlotte or moving to Charlotte and it had ELEVATION CHURCH! I’ve heard the pastor speak before and heard such wonderful things about the church. I knew if I couldn’t be near a NewSpring campus, I wanted to be near Elevation Church.(http://www.elevationchurch.org/)

However, you don’t get everything you want. At those moments, we are usually disappointed.

A lesson I had really been learning and understanding. I think God recognized that I really had been because I GOT THE VANGUARD JOB!!!

Let me be very clear. I got the job because of faith, understanding, and hard work. I believed God would guide me in the right direction, I understood that God’s plan was much better than ANYTHING I could ever devise for myself, and I worked hard in school and preparing for those interviews to be successful.

Each time I think about it, I get so excited and thank God. I firmly believe that my financial internship (that I never would’ve pictured having) was a clincher in getting this job. Funny how those things seem to work out when God is involved.

It took me awhile but I finally got it:

"Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness. Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart"

-Psalm 37: 3-4

“It’s completely possible to live a life beyond normal.”-Unleash

Let's start with this quote to get it going:

“If our view of God is small and manageable and normal then we will have a small view of what
He wants to do in and through us.”-Unleash

Being back to school has its' ups and downs. I love being back with so many of my friends all in one place, having my own room and back, setting my own rules, you know, basically the college life. However, if I ever needed reminders that I'm not normal, college provides that.

How am I not normal? I'm a pretty focused individual to start with so I tend to extend myself over several activities and areas to be involved with. I don't go drinking on the weekends and party it up. As I've talked about in a previous blog, I don't really date. I think one of my primary purposes of being in college is to get a degree by working hard and aiming for the great job after graduation. I believe life should be fair and that everyone should be on an equal playing field. That picture I just painted would probably be safe to say, isn't one of the "normal" college student. Many people have had comments to make about my lifestyle choices but nothing says it better than another quote from Unleash: “One of the quickest ways to forget what God says about me is to focus on what the enemy says about me.”

What is Normal? If you go to NewSpring Church on a regular basis, you've probably heard Perry touch on this but let me paint you a picture of normalcy in America these days:
1. Over 30% of marriages end in divorce. That's ONE-THIRD of families being broken up
(http://www.cnbc.com/id/46797203/As_Two_Income_Family_Model_Matures_Divorce_Rate_Falls)
2. In 2010, almost 7,000 teen mothers (6,847 mothers, ages 15-19) gave birth.
(http://www.cdc.gov/teenpregnancy/aboutteenpreg.htm)
3. In 2008 (latest data I could find) there were approximately 1.2 MILLION abortions
(http://www.cdc.gov/mmwr/preview/mmwrhtml/ss6015a1.htm?s_cid=ss6015a1_w)
4. As of August 2012, the unemployment rate is 8.1% (This has NOTHING to do with politics and everything to do with the state of our country)
(http://www.bls.gov/)

If that is what "Normal" is for America, I'm going to take a pass.
Why is this important? If you are a Christian, thinking of being a Christian, or just want something more for your life, then you need to consider reading UNLEASH by Perry Noble.

Perry Noble is not only a charismatic speaker, but a writer as well. His ability to bring what many believe to be a boring book that isn't applicable to modern day to life and help the reader understand what God wants for us is AWESOME. Every major point Perry makes, he backs up with a scripture source. Perry isn't perfect and he makes sure to let the reader know this, detailing parts of his journey with God. God doesn't call us to be "normal." If he had, Jesus wouldn't have picked the outsiders to be his disciples or used people like Samuel and Joseph to lift up and do his work. God also doesn't call us to fit in, compromise our values and get along with everyone. God calls us to live the life he called us for, “God is not after our begrudging submission. He is after our joy.”-Unleash

Basically, God wants your happiness but being normal is not where you will find it. You must break free from being normal and live your life unleashed! PLEASE buy the book. It will be some of the best money you ever spent. So simple and easy right here: http://www.amazon.com/Unleash-Breaking-Normalcy-Perry-Noble/dp/1414366795/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1348620310&sr=8-1&keywords=Unleash
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Thanks for reading :) If you ever have questions, please let me know. I'm always willing to try to answer your questions, especially regarding anything Biblical related and if I don't know the answer, I will do my best to refer you to someone that can or find it for you!

 

Living the Single Life

Have you noticed the closer and closer we get to graduation, the more and more people that are getting engaged? Is there something in the water? What is this time pressure to get married?

For the most part, I’ve never really felt the need to engage in dating. In this aspect of my life, God has put a mature look on it. Sex before marriage? Not for this girl. Hanging out with an immature guy? Nope, not interested. I’ve had a handful of boyfriends, dated some great guys, but at the end of the day, I just didn’t feel more than friendship. That doesn’t mean it has been easy to take the single road. It’s just something I’ve felt really convicted about. I mean really, where in my busy life do I have time for my friends let alone a boyfriend? Something I decided awhile back was until I get my life together with my friends and quiet time with God, I’m not dating.

Listening to Perry preach about dating and relationships and what to expect from a boy, wow, I’m thinking I might never meet a guy that would meet those expectations or at least can meet them and is single. I do firmly believe in what Perry has said, but three things in particular stand out:

1.     A guy should pursue the girl

2.     Twitter, facebook, texting  DO NOT count as asking a girl out. Man up.

3.     A guy should have to grow closer to God to pursue you.

Now, I’m sure there are some great guys in Clemson. I sure haven’t met any single ones that seem to match this criteria and where there is a mutual interest. So, it’s been relatively easy to keep saying no.

One guy told me this past year, my expectations were TOO high. Seriously? So you think I should lower them just for some guy who won’t remember me in ten years? I think not. Now, many of you are wondering why I’m posting about something that seems easy. The reason is, it isn’t easy for me. Many of my friends think I’m fine being single and that I’m taking the right path (even though some of them haven’t done it as well) but God has really convicted me about this. However, when I’m a third wheel or sitting by myself at home on a Friday/Saturday night doesn’t mean I still find it easy. A speaker at FCA spoke this Spring and I have these notes which really resonated with me:

John 10:10 “The thief comes only to steal, kill, and destroy.”

John 8:44 “When he lies, he speaks his native tongue,, for he is a natural liar, and the father of all lies”

The Top Five Lies of Satan

1.     There’s nothing special about you

2.     Your net worth determines your self-worth

3.     Your position determines your power

4.     Being single, makes you second class

5.     God doesn’t want you

I think we would all be liars if at some point, we didn’t believe/struggle with at least one of these. I’ve believed all five at some point. Now, you guessed it! I’m struggling with number four, being single makes you second class.

With so many engagements, dating, kissing, relationships all around me, and nearing graduation, yeah, it’s hard to be single. Society has made me feel second-class because I don’t have a serious boyfriend or fiancé. Guess what, God hasn’t called me to be “normal” or fit in with society. God wants me to wait on the perfect guy HE PICKED OUT FOR ME. If it was a good enough plan for Ruth (and God gave her Boaz) I think it’s a good enough plan for me.

How can you NOT want to wait for the guy God has hand-picked for you? I’m not saying I’m not going to date until this guy walks on rainbows and clouds and appears before me but I’m going to wait until I meet a guy I think has the potential to be the guy God wants for me.

I ask for some encouragement in this area. It’s only going to get harder to see more friends get engaged and more friends to meet some great guys. Make no mistake, I’m very happy for them and am glad that their time appears to be now. It just doesn’t make it easier. Thanks for your encouragement guys!

Gauntlet 2012

I would be remiss if I didn’t take the opportunity to blog about one of the best and worst weeks of my life. Some of you are probably raising your eyebrow, trying to determine how those two could go together. Bear with me, this will probably twist and turn and be long but I’m just going to speak from the bottom of my heart.

I was leery, to say the least, going into this. Missing an entire week of my internship? An entire week of a paycheck? Not get to focus on the very expensive summer class I was taking? Be responsible for three teenage girls? Sleep on the floor? Lead three girls in example and small group when I’m already on a rocky enough road with God? Oh, and I’m PAYING for this? Someone knock me the head, please!

Challenge God to challenge you and he will do it. Brad Cooper said this week “God is a promise maker, AND a promise KEEPER!” Wow, that really resonated with me. I asked God to help me really connect with these girls and I may have gotten more than I bargained for.

Prayer is powerful. I’ve never prayed so hard or desperately to see some things happen. I came across this passage in quiet time one morning during the week: Matthew 18: 19-20 “Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.”

Imagine most of 2700 people praying for salvations and people to be healed and miracles to happen. You better believe we saw that during the week. I believe in prayer, I believe in sharing your prayer requests. If you ever want me to pray for our about something please let me know. I’d be honored to do it.

I started the first morning off meeting two other leaders who are both engaged. This is important to remember for another blog post I will do. All I could think was dang, Satan really wants my attention.

Right before we stopped for lunch we met our student groups. My initial impression was that it was going to be a quiet week. HA! No. When we got to the hotel we went for a walk on the beach and talked and got to know one another. That night, was the first night Perry spoke back from his sabbatical. Man, did he BRING IT! His message was so convicting, 115 students were saved that night. Including, two of my three girls. You have never felt something quite like that until you see students bawling and holding one another while out loud asking God for his forgiveness. As the students walked out towards the back to meet with someone, Perry made the comment that THIS was why we tithe, why we do church. I’ve really struggled with tithing each week but let me tell you, now I look forward to giving money each week.

If you think the good times stopped there, try again. The daily schedule looked something like this:

-Breakfast/Quiet Time

-Worship/Morning Service with Brad

-Community Groups (students met with students in their same grade to get in smaller groups and discuss the morning service. I had rising twelfth graders. During this time I got to meet other leaders and just relax.)

-Lunch

-Free Time (Couple hours, we did beach two days and nap time and shopping another)

-Dinner

-Worship/Evening Service with Perry

-Small Group

-Small amount of sleep.

-Start Over

Watching 2700 people worship and listen to the message and feel God’s presence was surreal. It was awesome just to watch these kids come to know God and hear his word, for many, the first time ever, especially a message on their level. Over the next few days, the girls came to really share a lot of details of their lives with the group. One of prayers has been to break my heart God, for what breaks yours. He did that. Listening not just to some of my girls but other students stories and the things they have gone through, broke my heart. You know that people go through drug addiction, drinking, parents that don’t parent, inappropriate behaviors, self image problems, etc but until you hear it first-hand, I don’t think you can truly appreciate it.

On Wednesday morning, something awesome happened. I’d really been praying for my one girl that wasn’t saved Monday night. She was very distant during worship, seemed to have no desire to lead group, and didn’t really seem to have a handle on the “Christian thing.” I really felt convicted that God was trying to speak to her but she was running away. On Wednesday morning during service she stood up to accept Christ and I got to lead her in prayer for salvation. Out of all the things we discussed I won’t forget her answer when I asked why she was certain that this is what she should do. She described the feeling of running away and that God wouldn’t let her sit down, she had to stand up. It made me realize, if every time we felt like that, we actually followed God’s plan how much more awesome would God’s glory be? And people say that God isn’t present anymore, that he doesn’t speak to his people anymore. FALSE!

We did testimonies in small group on Wednesday night. I can’t divulge details out of respect for their privacy but I can say, more than ever did I believe in the every number has a name, every name has a story. These girls blew me away from the backgrounds they can from. My heart broke. I felt so much respect for these girls that were trying to climb out of the hole and reach for God. Much of what they said, they had never shared with someone before. Man did I feel privileged.

On Thursday morning, I got to witness over 500 students get baptized. Try not to be jealous, because you should be. Sunrise baptism is possibly one of the coolest things ever. Seeing these students come shivering out of the water, tears streaming down their faces, running towards their friends and leaders screaming and yelling. Then going and worshiping straight on the beach in this amphitheater area. If people didn’t feel God’s presence then, I’m not sure they were even trying to listen.

What did God teach me through all this? Besides some awesome messages from Brad and Perry, a lot.

1.     Never quite learning from those around you. My students taught me more than I thought possible. Especially that it is so important to pour into the younger generations. One of my girls I told would be a great leader. I’ve never seen someone have such a kind sweet heart with the potential to really connect with others around her. She cried because NO ONE HAD EVER told her she could be a leader. Blew my mind.

2.     Everyone has a story, no two stories are alike. You might think you have/had it rough, try again. Everyone has went through life and been dealt obstacles, learn from those around you.

3.     Never quite asking for salvations, never become immune to that amazing experience. We saw 250 salvations. It never got old.

4.     My basically nonexistent quiet time is about to change. Sitting on the beach each morning talking to God and reading his word, yea, I want me some more of that each morning.

5.     I need to do a MUCH more meaningful job of getting people to church. One of my students was there because her friend invited her. If she hadn’t she wouldn’t be there. People don’t just wake up one day and decide they want to go to church. It’s because someone took the time to make them feel special and invite them. I don’t care if you have invited them 500 times, it might take 501 for them to come. Don’t stop believing in them!

6.     My corporate America vision, might not be for me. I’ve never felt so convicted to work with teenagers. I’m still not sure what this looks like, but when I do, I’ll let you know. For right now, it means trying to rearrange my fall schedule so that I can volunteer at Fuse in the fall.

7.     Drinking? For anyone that knows my story they know alcohol is a big thing in my life. I believe that God has called me to step away from alcohol completely. I also think this means after I turn 21. I’m not 100% on this yet, but I have a feeling it will be. It won’t be easy AT ALL. I don’t think it is supposed to be. I think God wants to use it for a testimony to him and a way for me to connect to people. I’d be happy to talk about this anytime as I work through it.

8.     Perry asked what one thing is standing between myself and God. The answer popped into my mind instantly. Control. That means, as a senior in college this year, I will be making no firm plans for my future. I will be praying for God to lead me in the direction he wants me. That doesn’t mean I won’t take the GMAT or do job applications. It means instead of praying to God to put me at P&G or Smuckers, I’m praying to God that he makes it abundantly clear where he wants me, even if that entails getting exactly one job offer to make sure I get the message.

I know this was long, but it wasn’t even half of the story. If you see me, please ask me about it. I needed this week more than many of the students. I needed to get pumped back up for God, I needed to see what God wanted from me, I needed to be shown what I was doing wrong. Be careful what you ask God for, you just might get it.